Everyone desire to look be 'nice & pretty'
I tried to conceal my acne skin using cosmetic and lose weight for looking 'GOOD'
I was scared to show my no make-up face people so I didn't go out without make-up
I used to wear nicely clothes and be concerned of what I am going to wear tomorrow.
I thought this s natural thing because most girls in Korea do same things like me.
It's really different with American students that we Korean students spent lot of time to be look nicely,wearing high heal and short skirt bring nice back which is too small to put books ( so they are bringing books using other hand even if they have bag)
When walking on the street or going on bus station and subway in Korea, you can easily find a lots of plastic surgery advertisements.
Many people emphasis being pretty and looking good.
But most things is just for showing to others.
I have experienced mind changing since came to America.
There are lot's people came from different site and country and diverse cultures and races in USA.
They have different hair colors and eyes color, skin color.
It was most interesting to me when I first came to America so sometimes (it might be sounds little strange) it was so fun looking people's eyes colors. Because most Korans only black or dark brown eyes and hair color.
I am not sure but that is the reason many Korean girls want to change their eye color using color lens for beauty.
We don't like own natural beauty and are going to unified standard which people have made for looking like beauty of the west people.
I didn't know loving me.
It have been breaking to thinking that I should be looking good since came to America. I don't want to compare with American but it's true that American know how love them for themselves.
I was decorating christmas socks couple days ago. My American friend tried to take picture of me, I said 'don't taking picture me. I have big acne in my cheek.' But he said 'that's your one part of your beauty.'
Woww.. I was so impressive as his that saying.
Now, I do not make up anymore for hiding my complex.
and do not making me hard for dieting. (just trying to maintain body balance)
I am so happy. Because of knowing even if I am not trying to be looking good, still I am beautiful and pretty.
I love me.
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